Moving to life from Amsterdam-Netherlands, to small town Bedepuszta-Hungary -2019
Body Mind - Mind Body
It is so interesting the internal process I find myself in actually living here. Most interesting in terms of Body & Mind and how we manage to -seemingly- separate them. My body knows living here is good for me: the air for breathing, the green for good view, the smells, the sounds of nature. All my senses are opening, and there are layers within and they are opening! Especially now in this spring season where nature laughs about 'less is more', it keeps on growing, flourishing, the green is so lush, birds are playing with their songs, the beez buzzing....... Being used to live in a big city I tend to block the overwhelming impulses surrounding me being it the busy traffic where you have to be in a 'high alert' modus, pollution or the cranky faces in the urban jungle, by fencing of my sences.
So my body's experience here is very clear, I notice it in every spontaneous deep sigh. But the Mind!! All those years longing to live here. And now in 'real time' a kind of cloudily layer tries to overrule the bodily feeling. Talking about all the could be difficulties I might face here and now, external ánd internal. So the Ego is playing it's part. Inhibiting me seeing clearly and trying to take a little bit of joy out of everyday's life by either anxiety, grumpy, irritated, worrying, sadness.
The beauty of it is I might thínk all kind of thoughts but I'm also aware of it. So the thoughts bearing the emotions stays on the surface and doesn't incorporate and become feelings. It is so interesting and pure: the feeling of the body knowing is a very steady feeling whereas the mind is more a hop on hop of feeling...
So I stick with the bodily experience and the awareness, take a deep breath and open my senses.